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I got my Bento box today!!  I ran to get the mail before leaving for classes and there it was!!  My shiny new red bento box from JBox!!!  I'll post pics sometime later, since I don't carry a camera to classes.



My Body, My Weight, My Life

Well, I've made personal decisions during my disappearance and at the start of this new year.  Its time to get off my ass and do something with myself.  I weigh well over 200 lbs and for the first time in years have gone up in my jean size.  Not a big thing it may sound but when you've been sitting somewhere for 4 years...well its a big big situation.  Losing weight and becoming healthier over all isn't just about vanity, which I will admit is indeed some of it, but because it is something that needs done.  My father died Christmas 2008 from complications of diabetes and its my mother's biggest fear that I'm going to become diabetic because of my weight and pop intake  Well, I refuse to let it happen.  There are other reasons too.  My self-esteem is another.  There are days that I'm okay with the way I look, I feel pretty I feel happy.  Then there are other days, I just want to stay in bed because I don't feel pretty, only fat and ugly; clothes won't fit, my family will critize my looks...those days I don't even want Dan to see how I look.  And he loves my body, somehow, and loves me for me.  He knows how I feel, and I'm thankful that he'll be there to support me through this.

This is something I need do.  The excessive weight takes a toll on my body some days, and I'm terribly unfit.  I eat and drink junk far, far to much, even though I've been getting better somewhat with the water amounts.  But when I get winded going up the stairs to my classes, and start weezing then well damn it, its time to get in gear.  So, its time to start thinking and start focusing.  My battle plan will be to follow!

Light at the End of the Tunnel....

Well...its been a hell of a long time, huh?  Over 60 weeks...and has a lot changed since then.

I've matured since those last few posts in 2008, not sounding as much as a whiny teenager and needless to say my high school posts from '07 will remain hidden...  My relationships have grown and weakened, my self-esteem and more, so much more.

I screwed up my education there for a bit, to the point that I was barely able to register for classes this term.  Good news though and I'm currently taking two credits to try and get my GPA up to a 2.0 and get off these suspensions.  I'm enjoying my two classes; Intro to Computer Business Applications and Intro to Accounting.  I'm going to be going into the Administrative Assistant program at my community college when that 2.0 is reached.  After finishing that program I will probably go back and expand on it, in these times you have to do so to keep from getting stuck somewhere.  Currently I have a faint plan in motion.  Because of the program, dealing with businesses are important so I will probably go back and go into the business programs getting my feet wet again at the community college before transferring.  And because of the business world, and personal interests, I plan on taking a language course in Japanese.  English and Japanese are the two most widely used languages for the industry.  Plans tentative but at least its a goal.

My relationship with Dan grows stronger day by day, despite the fact we're not physically together at the moment.  Long-distance relationships certainty can take their toll on a couple, but we're going on two years now and we love each other very much.  We have our ups and downs yes, by no means is it picture perfect, but we have a solid foundation as friends and lovers.  Trust, respect, love, friendship, compassion...

I have a body spiel...but due to length it will come in a later post.

Thank you!  And I'm so very glad to be back.


Jul. 24th, 2008

Why does being in love hurt so much?

Teen Creed

Teen Creed

Don't let your parents down,
They brought you up.
Be humble enough to obey,
You may give orders someday.
Choose companions with care,
You become what they are.
Guard your thoughts,
What you think, you are.
Choose only a date
Who would make a good mate.
Be master of your habits,
or they will master you.
Don't be a show off when you drive.
Drive with safety and arrive.
Don't let the crowd pressure you,
Stand for something or you'll fall for anything.

101 Ways to annoy Professor Snape

1. Learn a charm that gives it's unsuspecting victim a large, fluffy, white rabbit's tail. For a week. Put it to good use.

2. Tell him you've lost your pet werewolf and has he seen it?

3. Scatter rose-petals in front of him wherever he goes.

4. Sneak up behind him and shout 'Your robes are on fire!'

5. Hug him. Say you were on strict instructions from Dumbledore to do it.